9Sunday, September 24, 2006

I've decided to leave her.. Tryin' to forget her , ignoring her , but... haiz.. It's hard for me to forget about her ... All the fun we had together turn into misery.. And tears were shed... I juz find out that she love someone else... I juz not meant for her....

No one cares for me in this world.. They all HATE ME!! I have given them care but myself was return with hate... Haiz.. I've decided to leave my friends and be alone... It's hard but i must!
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9Saturday, September 23, 2006

Today i try to ' PUJUK ' dia through sms... Today i wrote a lot of poems to her... Usually i don know how to write poem.. But somehow i can write poems for her.. it's a miracle... haiz... Still sad though.. i don know wat to say anymore but i will not give up for the sake of love... I juz wanna see her happy that's all... n0w i'm worried sick thinking about her.. Is she alright??
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9Friday, September 22, 2006

Haiz... Today she sad... Her sista la... Disturb her... make her cry.. bad sista.. She nearly hit by a car but i save her... lucky seh... Then i "pujuk" her... she really sad seh... hope she's alright... I care about her.. but sumtimes i'm not confident... aiyo..!! That's all for today...
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9Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Toaday at night i study at Mc Donald with my fren Helmi.. So fun studying there..Can concentrate better.. after that i send him home by my bike...very fun...juz wish she was here with me... Haizz... k la.. tat's all..toodles -_-

hie frenz.. If u are my frenz... Today sad seh but happy also... Today my friend scold me because i handball in soccer... what seh!! It's just a game seh.. He hurt my feelings seh.. really really hurt... but i forgive him... then after school i rush home take my oboe coz i forget to bring my oboe then after tat i got MT oral... Very seh..Hope i pass...

Then got band after that... I come with no mood seh bcoz my frenz hurt my feelings..then when combind that time i felt very happy... Bcoz i was with her... Being with her always makes me happy... k la... tat's all
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9Friday, September 08, 2006

errr... Today liyana's birthday... She's so happy but i'm not... juz wanna wish her Happy birthday liyana!! Todat get scolding from senior like hell..!! They ask me to play but i cannot play.. i cannot count the beats only.. they make me feel i sux at playing oboe... I don feel playing anymore.. so sad.. so frustrated..

After sectional we celebrate liyana's birthday.... I never eat her cake... She never serve me.. So sad.. nvm la... i meant nothing to her... I always keep to myself if i'm sad ... I don want to let ppl knows that i sad..
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9Thursday, September 07, 2006

Today boring.. I want to go out but i don't feel like going out...So just practicing my oboe at home.. Don't want go self sectional because got no mood.. So boring seh today.. Tml her birthday..
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9Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Today i feel like i am sick but i'm not.. Nothing much to do today.. Just practicing my oboe at home.. Practicing so hard to be good as my senior.. I nearly there to be the same as my senior..
I know i can do it.. My band is getting worst.. really need to bulk up...
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